This post will be more personal then usual. I am at work on my lunch break and just read couple of beautiful posts while catching up over Twitter. I am pretty new to that I must say. But in last couple of months I have realised so many things and just wanted to share it. Maybe to help someone who might feels the same or maybe to let the words go out and help my own self.
When I was at school, both, elementary and high school, I used to love reading and writing. And I used to be really good at it. Practise makes perfect, I suppose. I even wanted to write a book for children. Yes, I still love fairy tale stories. Have you got a problem with that? Haha. That was one of the reasons I have started this blog. It was two years ago, under a different domain. I wanted to practise my writing, English and photography. But I kind of given up I think, as I had no idea what I was doing. All the rules in blogging world, all the promoting and professional fashion photoshoots, and oh the Instagram likes.
I also wanted to use this blog as an online diary. Simply because it saves the space in my room. I always kept my old notebook diary. I used to look into them years later and found out what I did and when. How I felt, who broke my heart and who made me laugh. Who I though was my friend and what I learnt. I was told that looking back is a bad thing. Disagree. So fucking disagree. Yeah, like you shouldn’t be stuck in the past. But oh my, by looking back I have learnt so much. By looking back I have saved myself so many times from doing the same mistake over and over again.
And now I am here. I´ve started a post about my airport essentials, because I am flying soon. Yes, it is topic which is “current”, but not topic which would make me happy right now. So I am creating this. I don’t want to be shy about my posts and my thoughts. And I want to be the same person out there online as I am right here, drinking a cup of herbal tea. I am not gonna be posting messy pictures just to be up to date and hope someone will like it. I am not going to be writing only about the new favourite lipstick (even tho, I do love it). There is so much more. Every time I was about to send my post online I passed it to my friends to read it after me, cause my Czenglish typos. And they always said: “I can hear you. I can hear your voice, while reading this. That is so you.” And it’s the biggest compliment I could be given. And I want it to stay like that. Don’t let myself drown to whatever is popular right now.
Future I plan
So what my plans are? Stay true to myself. If you like me. Now, that’s great! I am flattered. If you don’t, that’s fine too. Just move on to some place better for yourself. What else? I am going home to Czech in less then a week. And I cannot wait. In nearly two years I have spent less then a week with my family. Not much, eh? And I have been feeling in last few months like a need to re-charge so bad. Anxiety knocking on the door. I just want to laugh with my mum, cuddle my beautiful dog and eat. Eat a lot. And oh, I am going to Prague for a weekend with one of my lovely friends. My first night spent in Prague, which I think will be incredible. Lady I am going to spend my weekend with is one of those friends who stayed no matter the time, no matter the distance. She truly is #internationalfriendshipgoals. So stay tuned for some Prague madness.
Sum it all
So I will be still posting about food, beauty and travel on Sundays. But also every now and then, at random time and day, I throw in lifestyle. Just like now. Whatever that really is. And there will be my life. My thoughts, and experiences. Everything about friends and family, sex and dating. Also body positive posts, to show all them people who ever put me down, how strong and happy I am now. And how strong and happy can you be. Because I am no longer frightened by sending my words to the world.
I also want to say hello to you all and see what you are up to. And I will be only be posting on Instagram when I want to. Some days more. Some days none. Only if I find it fun. If you go and like my feed, again I´d be over the moon. But if you don´t, that is okay too. I am no longer unsure about myself. So come and say “Hello!”.
I don´t blame if you are looking at that featured picture and wondering “what the hell is that” or “how is it connected to this topic”. I don´t expect you to understand. No need to. That´s just me. Simple.